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My Will Is Not My Own

by Give My Remains to Broadway

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1.
Am I looking at the essence alone? Beyond skin and the bone Bring the mirror in close I see the soul, it is mechanical And it won't let me go I'm bound and tied by a power unknown But through blue fire I see you on a throne I press escape, access revoked Access revoked I can't escape, access revoked An awareness of my presence there Triggers a call and response A spiral set of stairs A thousand eyes, never breaking a glare I allow the observation, like I'm not ensnared Loose footing, as my body tires And I surrender as I'm falling from the spire Wings break through my back like wires And I fly to the light, like a bat on fire Am I looking at the essence alone? Beyond skin and the bone Bring the mirror in close I see the soul, it is mechanical And it won't let me go I'm bound and tied by a power unknown But through blue fire I see you on a throne I press escape, access revoked Access revoked I can't escape, access revoked
2.
Agitator 01:39
Tonight I feel it in my body, free from mind The lights That dominate entirely, are eyes Your eyes To bind me in A palisade That simulates An open grave An agitator Buries me alive There's an epoch written Carved into the walls Of dirt in hieroglyphs Reminding me, that I am not the only one Nor catalyst, to start the endless cycle of destruction And corruption, no obstruction I'm the host of the room I'm a jester, I'm a king, I'm a wizard, and a beggar, I have felt it all before, so I see it to the core Of why you hold a brilliant power And a knowing I prepare myself as sacrifice To be all-consumed Tonight I feel it in my body, free from mind The lights That dominate entirely, are eyes Your eyes To bind me in A palisade That simulates An open grave An agitator Buries me alive Buries me alive
3.
Down on my luck Down an unfamiliar path I don't remember Where I came from, here I stand I see a neon flicker In the corner of my eye It feels familiar A beacon From behind a whisper Starts crawling down my spine A shadow lingers On mine A dark seductress Tells of two fates intertwined Down the staircase A locked door A shrine Dark seductress Tells of us in other lives She fills two cups And says I'll show you Tonight Down on my luck Down an unfamiliar path I don't remember Where I came from, here I stand I see a neon flicker In the corner of my eye It feels familiar A beacon From behind a whisper Starts crawling down my spine A shadow lingers On mine A dark seductress Tells of two fates intertwined Down the staircase A locked door A shrine Dark seductress Tells of us in other lives She fills two cups And says I'll show you Tonight
4.
When the mist fades It's just another day In reverie How can I proceed Eternal night stays A world of horrors, calling out to me In my True state Dead space It's beaconing New grace Mirror lake She breaks The glass and leaves A trail behind And I'll walk that line To find A sign My will is mine When the mist fades Into pouring rain It's just another day In reverie How can I proceed Eternal night stays A world of horrors, calling out to me In my True state Dead space It's beaconing New grace Mirror lake I break The glass and leave A trail behind And I'll walk that line To find A sign My will is mine A sign my will is mine A sign my will is mine
5.
Breathe for you Speak on it If you can Be sorry I'll be silent If I stand Beside you Behind me I've been spiralling, you can Be honest Just go harder Just be for this Just be focused On me If you close your eyes It could Be August, again Keep falling Skies open Like god noticed I've been Planeswalking Turn focus On us In this moment Breathe for you Breathe for you Reach into your heart And make it beat for you Beat for you Speak on it If you can Be sorry I'll be silent If I stand Beside you Behind me I've been spiralling, you can Be honest Breathe for you Breathe for you
6.
Returning To you was easy to me You say kneel and I kneel I am down on my knees Laughter A cosmic game played on me A fallen tree in the woods Nothing near to hear or see You are the Skeleton key Open everything That I am or I'll be You pulled me From the depths of the sea From the darkest abyss From a black with purple seams Toward your mind To one with mine To one with mine Baby my tank is on empty And I'll drive until it dies Returning To you was simple to me You say kneel, I concede I've been down on my knees Reacting A cosmic scale balancing A burning field in the way You say walk facing me Toward your mind To one with mine To one with mine Baby my tank is on empty And I'll drive until it dies Reverting To you was easy to me You say kneel and I kneel I am down on my knees Laughter A cosmic game played on me A fallen tree in the woods Nothing near to hear or see You are the Skeleton key
7.
Don't tell me when you go Don't leave a note What you've been looking for Is further down the road It's somewhere out the door A secret code You've used it once before Protecting hand to core Held further down the rose Tighten the bind I feel the weight of my existence all the time I feel the thorns, I pace around a house of vines In perfect dark, a faded voice A friend of mine I do embrace the mind to mind Body to body, light to light You are the night An ancient mind, through modern eyes Synthesized, and brought to life to galvanize To say goodbye To set it right Don't tell me when you go Don't leave a note What you've been looking for Is further down the road It's somewhere out the door A secret code You've used it once before Protecting hand to core Held further down the rose
8.
You send the message My presence is requested now And I'm reluctant You're relentless Im defenceless Dominated Pure dependance Unprotected Pulls me back by Chain and necklace Swing the pendant You've collected It's all connected Swing the pendant you've collected A light refracting From the scepter You intend it You're so demanding When you want it You can have it Kill the wolf Enslave the shepherd Walk the plains And guard the entrance You send the message My presence is requested now And I'm reluctant You're so relentless Im defenceless Dominated Pure dependance Unprotected Pulls me back by Chain and necklace Swing the pendant You've collected
9.
Secrets 02:07
Around you there are secrets And they're swirling, like demons Through your reasons, and regrets There's a meaning You can throw that feeling In a lockbox, and seal it You can repent, if you mean it Put the key in To the portal Let the liquid coat your arm Use the password clear, to pay your fare And walk right through the door I'll be with you Behind you Like you wanted from the start A companion For the message While you're walking through the arch Around you there are secrets And they're swirling, like demons Through your reasons, and regrets There's a meaning You can throw that feeling In a lockbox, and seal it You can repent, if you mean it Put the key in Around you there are secrets, and they're swirling Like demons
10.
The side of me you've seen unwind Once again, takes you to a place Of nothingness, an empty crypt The remnants of you and I Drifts away till nothing is left But pestilence You said it would come to this A dissonance A bitter end To suffering The cycle starts again An engine hums (it's building up) Thought that we could run from And fend it off (and send it off) Right back to where it comes from The side of me you've seen unwind Once again, takes you to a place A mirrors edge Of emptiness The symmetry of you and I Still remains, when nothing is left But pestilence You knew it would come to this

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My Will Is Not My Own, the first full-length release from Give My Remains to Broadway, sets the listener inside a new territory of the void. The album refines and builds upon their established position within the world of gothic music, and explores new themes both lyrically, and sonically. My Will Is Not My Own, draws inspiration from Eastern philosophy, and various occult texts, articulating them through a series of moments within an all consuming relationship, set inside an inescapable dungeon of suffering. Lead vocalist, Ben, displays new range and clarity, on top of a pulsing mosaic of gothic production by Deegs, which invokes nostalgia of 80’s Post-Punk, with modern danceability, and an authentically Toronto sound.

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released October 21, 2022

Vocals: Cartoon Ben
Production: Deegs
Written By: Teddybear & Cartoon Ben
Additional Production: Deathnotes & Sad Madona
Mix/Master: Nev Ver & Cartoon Ben
Art Direction: Hush.

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Give My Remains to Broadway Toronto, Ontario

Give My Remains to Broadway is a Toronto based Darkwave / Post-Punk duo spearheading a new wave of gothic music in the city, and the underground alike. Started by best friends and roommates, vocalist, Ben, and producer, Deegs, in 2021, they went on to release their debut EP, Beyond the Gates of Xouztoth, which cemented them as frontrunners in the genre. ... more

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